I'm Back (At Least For Now)!

I have the hardest time keeping up with this blog. The truth is that I hate to write (or type in this case--with my lazy self)...I always have, even though I made good grades in school. I am a secret stalker...but don't worry--not like in any weird kind of way, or anything! I love keeping up with other people and reading their blogs. I just can't find the energy or motivation to post anything myself...it is absolutely daunting for me to put my thoughts in such a limited space. Plus, I have always been really private--only sharing things with an extremely few (around 3), select people. Anywho...it's been a very long time since I last posted. So, where to start with the updates? Well, I am still married & still very much in love.

Marriage has it's challenges, but you know what they say about making it through the first year. And, we are at 16 months & counting! I am still battling with the to parent or not to parent decision. The thought still frightens me & excites my husband. I must admit that whenever I look at the posts from other bloggers with their little ones, I feel guilty for having such strong hesitations and anxiety about having kids. Especially when I hear of others who desire so badly to conceive. It just plain boils down to I don't know if it is for me or God's will, but one day I will know b/c either it will happen despite my reservations, or it won't...I know that others would absolutely & positively LOVE (bold, italicize, and CAPITALIZE that) for that to take place. In the meanwhile, PLEASE, check out this page that I've created to help my mother-in-law, as  she (triumphantly--prayerfully) battles cancer (Click the image):
 

Cancer: Mother-in-Law

Got Love?

Wow, to think that a little more than a year ago, I was setting myself aside so that God could prepare me for the mate, for whom I had been begging. And now, I'm grateful to God for sending him my way. It's amazing that I met my husband almost exactly a month after I posted the below (click on link):

Cafe' Camille: "Next Chapter"? and How We Met

I love my husband...he's wonderful...all that & a bag of chips, you might say. His smile & laughter are infectious. Of utmost importance & number one on my list of requests...he's a godly man, who is passionate and compassionate. Did I already say that I'm in love? Well, I am! Today's Valentine & my hubby & I are temporarily separated (only physically....did you think that I meant like in divorce or something?...Are you crazy?! I don't even want to entertain that thought). I miss him so & cannot wait to take him into all of my senses again, once we are reunited! Also, my hubby's bday is the day immediately following the big V-Day, so we'll get to do a double celebration when he returns... how fitting would it be that a man, who is the love of my life (& directly & specifically crafted for me by God) would have a birthday so close in time to the day of love! I love you, Babe! Here's thinking & reminiscing on ya! Please don't kill me for the pic, but I like this one of you.